Even Though

I've been trying to be more positive. I have a tendency to focus on the negative. I have the tendency to get overwhelmed by the harder, not so good things in my life.

So I decided that I needed to work on all of that because obviously the way I'm going about things is not working.

I'm trying not to blog so much gloom and doom, thinking that will help me not focus on the gloom and doom. And to a degree it does help but on the other hand, I'm not releasing some of my feelings.

Because even though I'm trying to be more positive, I still feel certain ways, I'm still being faced with certain situations.

Maybe it's a matter of acknowledging the feeling or situation but also acknowledging the good.

Like, even though Barry and Chris may not be the friends we thought they were, we still have other people who are our friends.

Like, even though Dad is so sick, at least we are being given the chance to have a relationship. A real relationship.

I know that I need to change my thought life as well as my eating habits in order to have a better emotional self. I feel like I've turned a corner or that my eyes have been opened and I'm beginning to see what I need to do to be ok.

It's a process and I hope that I can continue to be open and willing to what I need to do.