Food for Thought

The other day I was in my kitchen, in a rush, I was so exhausted I was almost in tears. I started crying out to God-I'm so tired God, I can't live this way, please help me, I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I think that was Tuesday or Wednesday, I'm not sure.

I've been worried about my mental state for the last couple of weeks. Worried about my health. And being me, I haven't said a word because maybe I am losing my mind or maybe I'm just weak and can't handle the demands of my life.

I've been hopeless-not seeing a way out of how I was feeling.

On Friday I was at the hospital for about 4 hours (not for myself, but for my dad who had his a-port put in and my FIL had knee surgery) and because of that I didn't eat lunch until I left. I noticed as my day went on, even though I was incredibly busy with a million places to be, I wasn't on the verge of a panic attack.

So then I started going over my day and I realized that I had not consumed my normal pound of sugar during the day.

Lightbulb!

I have been scouring the internet for information about the link between sugar and depression. I know in my heart that my poor diet is at the center of my mood swings, my episodes of depression, my fatigue.

I went to bed feeling hopeful, knowing that with some hard work, I can change my life.

I know this will not be easy because let's face it, sugar is in just about everything we eat. But what's the alternative? Feeling close to a break down just so I can have that danish? I am going to have to cut down on my diet coke consumption which will be just as hard as changing what I'm eating.

I plan on sharing what I learn as I go, whether it be here or on a separate blog that I start. I'm not sure. Right now I'm in the information gathering stage. I want to share this because I know that I am not the only one that is sugar sensitive, I know that I am not the only one who knows something is wrong so maybe they'll stumble upon my blog and they'll see themselves in me.