Just So Thankful

JR made it home safe and sound yesterday.

And I want to take some time and talk about him.

We have hit a rough patch over the last 6-9 months. I've shared a little here and there. It's nothing huge. I think it's just one of those things that happens from time to time in marriages. I haven't felt as connected which makes me pull within and then he senses my pulling away which makes him step back. I guess that is what you would call a vicious circle.

I felt that this little bit of time apart would be a good thing for both of us.

And it was.

He went hunting with a group of people from our area, a couple of them he has gone on hunting trips with before-Larry and James. The last time he went away with Larry, Larry fessed up to how he likes to visit "massage parlors", that when he goes to the city for sporting events, he'll leave the game early so he can go get a "massage". According to Larry you get "worked over pretty good" when you go to one of these places.

These hunting trips are out in the middle of nowhere so unless they fly in one of those wonderful "massage therapists", it's really not an issue.

I know Larry and I didn't have much respect for him before I found out about his fondness of "massage parlors". But when I found out that he does this frequently, without protection and then goes home to his wife, he lost what little respect I had for him.

But ultimately, it's none of my business. He's not my husband, not my problem. I'm not friends with his wife and honestly, she may know about it and not care.

So whatever.

I found out last night that when JR and the rest of the group were in Montreal, Larry was pushing for everyone to go out and find a "massage parlor". Even James, who I also know and who I would have never thought would want to do something like that, was all for it. Actually every single man wanted to go.

Except for my husband.

And they rode his ass for it and kept pressuring him about it.

Maybe they just don't understand the implications of doing something like that. But really, they are too selfish to even care about the implications.

I'm so thankful to be married to a man who loves and respects me enough to first of all, not want to put me at risk for disease and second of all, to not want to break the commitment we've made to one another.

I'm thankful that he loves and respects me enough to not want to hurt me like that. He knows that is the one thing that would absolutely just crush me.

There would've been a day that I would've doubted that he loved me that much. Not because of him but because of the issues I've had.

And I can't tell you how wonderful it feels to know, to really know that I can trust him with my heart.

I may not be around much the next few days because I'm going to be spending a lot of my free time showing that man just how much I am thankful.

I think he will be a very happy man.